Sometimes I think if I was born in Africa or something, or, let me rephrase that, a place without magazines or television or internet.. Would I still be like this? Im not sure. Or maybe it is just me. Hard to say. Ive had some watermelon today. Tomorrow is my country's national day, and everyone eats tons of icecream and hotdogs. I think Ill just by my boyfriend tons of stuff, and just say that I dont feel like any. And that is the truth, I really dont feel like eating. Sigh. I have no idea of my weight at the time, not having a scale drives me mad. I going home for the summer in 2 weeks time, and there we have a scale. Im dreading to weight myself, though. Im sure I havent budged a pound. gah.
Me before going out today.

took a picture of myself while out tanning yesterday.. please let me know what you think, and please be harsh, I really need it.. thanks :)

I hate those days I dont feel perfect.
I never feel perfect, so I hate every day.

Starve on, lets join up in this hell.

During fairly good today, currently at negative 564 calories, happy about that :D
bf just came home with a big bag of icecream and popcorn.. kill me.. But Ill get out of it ^^
<3

Been walking alot today, done crunches and went for a run.
Day ends at around 400 calories
Not super, but not to bad either
How have you done today?

I love this community so much!

Gah, I have a reunion coming up, and I want to look so fab!
Its the 19th to 21th of October, and Im stressed as hell!
I hate and love things like this.. You know the feeling
It gets me real motivated though

<3

Tomorrow is Monday, and we all love Mondays, dont we? (L)
New week, fresh starts
Monday are my favorite day, everything is clean and fresh!
Things to do this week:

Finish my uni-assigment
Attend all classes, all week
Walk at least 10 km every day
Dont eat anything unhealthy
Loose weight
Drink tons of water (Im SO bad at that)
Do something nice to the apartment (suggestions?)

Hope everyone is doing good
Love you all so much, you are like my closest family :)

I, seriously, dont know what I would have done without you people!

<3

The Sacred Heart is going amazing =) I dont know if Ive lost anything yet, I dont have a scale, and I dont feel any lighter.. But, I dont know.. We`ll see.. Ill measure myself in the end of the week, and see what we have *thumbs up*
stay strong lovelies

Today is a real good day! I got my boyfriend to join me in on the Sacred Heart, and its going real well :)
I read that you can loose uptil 17 pounds, but that just seems to good to be true.. But I dont know, Ill give it a shot =)

Done.. not so bad today, I guess.. Had a grapefruit and soup, thats about it. But I felt so full, the moment my boyfriend was out of the door, I just ran to the toilet and purged.
Hah, this may sound so stupid, but I feel so "peaceful" right after purging. My eyes are watery, my troat are sore, my stomach is empty. It just feels so great. I purged yesterday as well, its so addictive. But still, I purging less than I used to, not everyday, and sometimes it can even go weeks between each time.
We, boyfriend and me, went to a friends house last night to watch a match. And, omg, her roommate, she is so skinny and perfect and gorgeous. We had pizza, but all she ate was an apple and a carrot. Gah.. I only had a little, and we walked for almost an hour to get home.
Boyfriend wants to have pizza tonight, I need to figure something out.. Hmm.. Ill have one slice and fill up on tons of water, or something.
Ive cleaned the whole apartment today, it looks really good, and I probably burned alot.
Drinking on saturday, empty calories.

Been an OK day, I guess..
Walked alot, Ive burned 1028 calories, not only from walking of course, but alot of other activites as well
Ive ate
1 grapefruit
1 banana
Few handfulls of popcorn
Few handfulls of chips >:(
Some bites of bfs dinner

How many cals? I dunno, I purged some of the popcorn and chips.. so Id say..
500 calories?

Think Thin

Have done pretty good today, I know Ive burned at least 800 calories <3
Finished this big uni-assigment, feels good! And I even have two more days, but I like to be early :)
Purged today, but it felt so good <3 the good life!

Im totally in love with Kate Nash, you should check her out!

Got up really late, drank a cup of tea.
Went out, did a lot of shopping, ate a bagel with some cheese on it, I dont know how many calories it could have been, maybe 250 calories.
Then I came home, did the dishes, and drank a small cup of soup, 90 calories.
Going to a friends house later, its an hour walk each way.
Hope I can get away from eating, but I think it will be bear there. Sigh. But Ill say that I just dont want any.
Hopefully bf dont make any food when we get home.
Stay strong lovelies

Past days have been ok, nothing to talk about really.
I really need to get a scale.
Been walking alot and putting together furniture and stuff today.
Getting sick, LOVE it
Love having a sore troat
<3

Stay strong lovelies

I did so good today, didnt eat anything.. and THEN my boyfriend "surprises" me with MacDonalds food! I was so unhappy! And I had to eat some or else it would have been -really- weird, you know?
I feel so fat..
But I have been walking around all day, redecorating the whole apartment, been active the whole day true.. maybe walked six hours all together? And Im starting to feel hungry again, so I dont feel like -complete- shit. But still. I probably had like 1200 calories or something.
But tomorrow, I have such a full day, so I think I can get out of eating quite easy.
The worst feeling in the world:
Go to bed feeling full

The best feeling in the world:
Walking up feeling hungry and dizzy

<3

You Are Sensual Sexy

You exude a luxurious sensuality in your everyday life Turning heads everywhere you go, it's all about your sexy attitude. You're naturally hot - gorgeous in both sweats and stilettos. Your biggest problem is that your ultra sexy self sometimes scares men away.

You Should Weigh 100

If you weigh less than this, you either have a fast metabolism or are about to gain weight. If you weigh more than this, you may be losing a few pounds soon!

Your Life is Rated PG

Your life is pretty family friendly. The worse someone is going to get from you is brief nudity or toilet humor.

Your Life is 80% Perfect

Your life is pretty darn perfect. You don't have much to complain about. Of course, your life is occasionally less than perfect. But you're usually too happy to notice.

Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC

"Back in black, I hit the sack, I've been too long, I'm glad to be back" Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos. But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!

You Are Artemis!

Brave, and a natural born leader. You're willing to fight for what you believe in... And willing to make tough decisions. Don't forget - the people around you have ideas too!

haha, thats the name of my horse!

You Belong in London

A little old fashioned, and a little modern. A little traditional, and a little bit punk rock. A unique soul like you needs a city that offers everything. No wonder you and London will get along so well.

So I slept out, felt good. Ive been lacking some sleep working all these nights, but now im feeling better *thumbs up*
My bf and me went to this mall in a city about an hour away yesterday, and there where SO many skinny girls there! I felt so sorry for him, walking beside me who are so FAT and looking at all those beautiful girls
Ive been invited to a pool-party with lots of my friends, which im totally freaking out about. Im just a pale, fat, disgusting cow, and I need to do something about that, quick. Im just eating stuff like watermelon and drinking tons of liquids, and Im tanning as often as I can :P And trying to keep myself out of the house, because I only tend to eat when Im in the house, having very little to do.
SO far today Ive only had some pieces of watermelon, and I can really feel my diet pills kicking in. They are reducing my appetite, supresing (spell!) sweet-hunger and helping me burn fat instead of muscle, so thats good :)
Well, Ill jump in the shower, meeting one of my friends afterwards, I havent seen her in such a long time!

I got home from work at 07:00 this morning, and I went straight to bed, not eating anything. Happy for that.
Then I got up around 15:00, and I ate some cereal, probably around 300 cals.
After that I spent some hours sunbathing until my mum told me it was dinner, but lucky she mad a really healthy one, and all I had was lots of lettuce, 0 cals, and maybe a cup of pasta, 100 (?) cals.
So my day has not been so bad, and Im going to work again at 23:00. I get so fucked up working in the night, but after that I have no work until Friday morning, so I can do a little mini-fast.
Just diet soda, juice, water and maybe some soup.
Well, I guess Ill go out and continue working on my tan <3

Back from China and Mongolia, it was crazy! Love to shop there <3 Got alot of white and green tea.
Easter break now, I really really wanna lose weight, so I look good when I go back to school.



I wanna be like her <3

Dont sit there and wish for it..
.. WORK for it

china here I come!
this is crazy <3